It's Raining

It's raining. I find myself mad. Mad that I would put this off till the last day. The one project I actually enjoy doing now having to do it in the rain puts a sort of disappointment inside me. For some reason, all the school projects that I enjoy or would actually like to do, I end up doing them at the last minute. That doesn't make sense to me. With that in mind I headed outside trying not be too annoyed with myself. The first thing I ran into where these white little berry looking things. 

Everything was dark and gray around them so they stuck out to me. They almost seemed out of place. It reminded me how I feel out of place sometimes wether it be at school or doing other things. It also made me excited for the future because although I may feel out of place that just means theres somewhere else I belong. I believe that God puts those feelings inside of us. Its almost like a sensor. It helps us (well maybe this only happens to me; im not sure) find what were meant to do or be where we were meant to be.  So although it sucks at times, Im thankful for those feelings because it has helped me time after time this last year in making decisions and choices. As I continued on my walk I realized I was walking down this small path way in the dirt. 

Now I know saying that life is like a path or there are many paths to life is a bit cliche but it reminded me how I am going to step out on that new path in life pretty soon. It worried me a bit that is that I have to decide what path to take. But just like before I knew that the holy spirit would lead me on the path I am meant to travel on. The last thing I came to on my walk was this cement block with moss growing on it.

It seemed like a bad place for anything to grow on but sure enough there was life. I started thinking about how I left this project till the last day again and for some reason my mind gave the moss a personality. I thought to myself "the moss probably didn't know it could grow on cement but it tried and sure enough it grew." I felt kinda retarded first for thinking that the moss could think and second for letting my God given gifts just sit idel. It showed me that although I might be scared of messing up or doing a bad job that God gave me these gifts for a reason and that is to use them for his Glory. Instead of  putting my gifts to the bottom of the list they should be the first ones I do. The ones I try hardest on. The ones I want to grow and develop. I shouldn't just put it off till the end because its easy for me to do but rather do it first to the best of my ability because that what God wants from us.